with a blink of my beloved eye.... its end feb alrdy!!

life for e past one month was just erm managable i suppose..

i think i fell sick for the longest time seriously.. was sick for like a week.. with fever n flu all tat.. virus flying ard arr...

but i seriously got to say is i DISLIKE ppl giving me like too much of a surprise like telling me my sister is getting married in e mid of april and telling me some other news about something else.. my heart canot take it de lehh... things are happening too fast!! goodness..

other den that.. i have been spending alot of time just chilling with various people enjoy life a lil.. having e new guys in camp makes life a whole lot easier man.. which means more rest and lesser duties.. wahahahahaha

all i can say is 100 more days to ORD and errr 3 more days to turning 23! OMG the thought of it makes me feel old alrdy!!

Its been almost half a month into 2012 alrdy man.. N yes I have been busy with parades and more parades, rehearsals and more rehearsals! And finalli its all done! I'm praying hard tt there won't be anymore those big big parades le.. Hahahah..

2012 soo far so good.. Enjoying life, I haven been doing duties luhh.. Its gonna be an awesome year man.. It dawn upon me tt I got to start planning for what I'm gonna do aft I ord in bout 4.5 months time.. Whoo time flies man.. I'm actualli gonna ord soooon.. Thinkin bout those times in bmt, 8sir n now here.. I been through like almost 1 year 8 months alrdy man.. Yes I learnt a lot and at e same time I noe I'm moving away from some stuffs man..

Honestly speaking, I nv expected myself to be moving away, but sometimes I'm realli struggling to stay and ultimately its realli my conviction.. I noe I'm ecpected to do more all tt, and ultimately I will be e one answering for my own decisions.. I got to admit I'm nt doing realli well, and I noe well that being in camp for alternate weekend is not a good enough excuse man..but if u see this keep me in prayers man.. I do appreciate it man..

E other day someone posted this question to me.. "Who r ur close frens now" and I couldn't think of anyone at that instant.. So that person said some names and all I could answer was "we haven realli talked or even met up".. It realli felt like I'm some lost sheep man..sometimes I realli feel like I'm walking alone man.. But I noe I will still be strong.. :) I will still 遇强则强，遇弱还是要强..

I noe I wouldn't noe who's out there reading my blog.. And I noe there are a lot of stuffs tt I can't say here although this blog belongs to me..therefore I think I will just end off here.. If u even think that I'm emoing, I'm not..

Goodness me! Its e last 24 hrs of 2011 alrdy.. And I realised how time flew past me like a flash.. It felt like yest tt I was spending my last hour of 2010 and 1st hour of 2011 in chong pang camp doing duty with tt jason.. *roll eyes* and its been a year and yet agn.. I'm spending it in camp.. I will be counting down agn in camp without any duties till 3am..

This year had been a realli challenging one for me, both physicalli, mentally and spiritually.. I sld say I went through quite a number of things, and I realli saw a lot of things man.. And I'm totalli glad tt 2012 is cmg in less den 24 hrs time cause I'm onli a few months to freedom..

I'm realli thankful for the ppl ard me and always being dere for me when I realli needed someone to be thr.. I thank God that I'm still surviving luh.. Although that r a lot of times when I dun realli feel like gg to church all tt..

I believe this up cmg year will be a realli exciting one man.. And lots of ppl are getting married! :)

it was a super long week and i cant believe my leave is gonna come to an end tml nite! omg! happy times just flies huh.. haaa.. im gonna just squeeze everythin into one post cause if not i duno when i will sit down and blog again..

but to be honest i was realli quite "hardworking" ever since i booked out last monday.. visiting kids, inviting em for our christmas party and thur all the way till sunday is all erm serving and attending svc..

da children church candlelight!

and before i could even rest... i had to attend my cousin's wedding on sunday nite..

i got to admit.. i was e least formal among all! too tired to even think what i wana wear..

to even think that i could slp in e following day knowing i was erm dead tired.. i landed myself in JB e nxt day.. spent the whole day dere shoppin and eating.. goodness..

rainbow!



food!

and finally i knocked out for like 11 whole hours.. and i was literalli lazing ard on my bed till 1215pm when i was meeting Joshua in town at 130pm.. its been realli long since i last sat down and just talk about anythin and everythin man.. when we usualli see each other, 80% of e time we are literalli serving soooo its hard to realli sit down and talk.. and i always thank God for this young boy man.. cause whenever i have to catch my kids and he is ard, he will be runnin to get them for me! wahahahaa.. one very sweet helper indeed!

and being soo tired.. i needed my dosage of coffee!
this was obviously taken more den 1 and half yrs ago..

and aft tt.. i went ahead to e other side of orchard to meet up with lijun and mw for movie and dinner...




and i officiali declare tat tdy all the way till i book in tml nite will be my rest day.. i need to catch up with my slp too!! hahahha

haven had much time to blog lately.. although i can access to e net easily but... laziness has gotten into me luh basically..

and sooooo... on e 11th of nov.. NP POS 2007 very first couple, jessel and jieyi, to get married!! hahaha.. its been 5 years since we had e large scale emerge and i realised its been 5 yrs alrdy! it was a realli good excuse for alot of us to come together man.. since aft POS tat year.. we were all busy in our own ways.. some of us backslided, some became leaders.. and we are not young anymore! i kinda miss all of em thou..



i realised i have quite a number of weddin invitations lately.. and my sincere apologies if i cant make it.. cause i realised 80% of e dates falls on e weekends im in camp.. -.-: i realli wished i could be there to celebrate the joyous occation with u guys man but my offs and leaves are limited! but my prayers are with u guys! =)

There's this place that I used to love to mount.. I dun even rmb whens e last time I mounted here.. But this time I'm here.. E feel is totalli different.. I don't like it.. To me its just another mount nearer to ORD-ing.. And I nv thought of stirring any shit here stabbing my own frens here..

Feeling realli sian when I came and what's worst was when someone came to me and went "so u here to spy on us rite! Tell us who sent u to spy us...." I totalli couldn't believed what my own so called fren said tt straight to me..

Well honestly speaking.. I nv ever thought that would come but I nvr ever will do that to my own frens here.. So what's ur prob here? Do feel free to think tt way if u think tt thrs a reason tt I suddenly come back here, this onli prove tt u don't noe me well enough.. Tts all! I don't realli care.. Cause I'm leaving this place in half a yrs time.. So who cares.. Hahaahaha

就到这里分手　
安慰的话别说
我会记得你给我的美好
从此不再寻找　
不再轻易拥抱
别管我的感受　
别怕伤害了我
飞翔如果是你要的自由
我怎能不放手　
不愿让你牵挂我的寂寞
你的掌心你的温柔　
点燃了我点燃了寂寞
别管我松开手心有多痛
只要你幸福迎风　
我愿意沈默
我愿放开双手　
给你自由给你梦
给你宽阔天空飞翔放纵
你说爱他灵魂
为他牺牲是认真
你是他的风筝　
该由他来心疼
别管沈默的我　
孤独的我怎麽过
你要珍重自己好好生活
我愿美丽风筝　
快乐天真去遨翔
就算我一个人孤独荒凉

Recently I was watching SCV and they were repeating 超級星光大道5 and it realli caught my attention.. Thou I didn't manage to catch every single episode, I still manage to catch a lot of parts on youtube.. And I realli thought this season's contestants were just awesome! Although I didn't watch e other seasons.. Like e winner 孫自佑 just has a certain charisma that realli attract ppl to pay attention to him.. He sang this song during one of the episode and I was touched by it man.. Hahaha..so I decided to paste e link below! Hahaa..and I'm blogging via my fone so there's a lot of things I can't do! Still I like his vocal range! :)
http://m.youtube.com/watch?gl=US&hl=en&client=mv-google&v=DtdESJzWa9k